Mary J. Blige used her own heartbreak and memories of her “horrible marriage” to get into her character for her upcoming film “Mudbound.”
In an emotional interview with Variety, she revealed the truth behind her breakup with husband Kendu Isaacs.
Recall that the duo were together for 12 years, and things began to fall apart when she noticed the sever changes in her partner, his he had fallen out of love with her. It took careful scrutiny to realise he had fallen for another one, and a heartbroken Mary quickly filed for divorce.
The singer was is set to play Florence Jackson in Dee Rees’ film adaption of the novel Mudbound, which was immediately met with Oscar buzz when it premiered at Sundance Film Festival in January.
However, her personal life was falling apart during filming.
“I used a lot of my own heaviness from my own misery that I was living in that horrible marriage,” Blige told Variety, “I was just dying in it. I knew something was wrong. I just couldn’t prove it. I just had all the heaviness of not feeling right, not feeling good. I gave it to Florence.”
“The hardest part was intimacy,” Blige explained. “I was married. I never touched another man other than my husband. I was petrified: ‘Oh God. I don’t want to do it.’”
“I’m doing OK,” Blige added in the interview. “I’m living. I’m not happy about a lot of things. I thought someone loved me, right? Turns out, he was a con artist and he didn’t, and now he’s coming after me for all my money.
When you come out of something like that, you realize you were never the one. There was someone else that was his queen. I got played. I got suckered. I have to keep smiling and keep my spirits up because this is designed to kill me.”